Unpredictable

I have never understood how
unpredictable relationships can be,
until I was faced with 2 choices:
to save you or to salvage my heart.
I was too afraid to take the risk
So this is how it feels to be
the one pulling the trigger.
I thought that it would hurt less,
that it would feel a wee bit better,
knowing that the bullet is not aimed
at myself, but the look you gave me
when you realized that the barrel
was pointed at you tore through
what was left in my chest anyway.

*as requested by @furtadobrandon for #bemymuse